This is me

I'm finally done with all the crap drama and stuff that's been consuming my mind and stressing me out. It wouldn't be as bad if I didn't know that this stuff is silly and pointless, but I do. I'm worrying over things that are completely petty. Like prom. I said I'd stop worrying about it, but all of my friends are telling me that I shouldn't worry, I'll get a date but now I don't want one because I know it won't happen and there's no point in waiting for something that will not happen. It hasn't happened yet, it will not happen. I shouldn't have to wait. I'M GOING BY MYSELF AND I'M GOING TO HAVE AN AMAZING TIME. I'LL BE THE ONLY ONE IN MY GROUP THAT'S "SINGLE" AND NOT TIED DOWN. there, it sounds a lot better that way and I like it. hm! :)

For times like these I need to resort back to our 2009 motto: This is me. I like it. If you have a problem with it, then EFF YOU!!!!! That's been my biggest problem. I started letting the enemy whisper his lies into my mind. I started believing the lies of: perhaps it's you, you're not beautiful enough, you're too confidant and that scares guys, you're not attractive, you're too desperate, you're bigger than those other girls.... NO. Devil, go back to Hell where you belong. Leave my presence at once in the name of Jesus Christ. you have no authority here. God is my one and only provider. He is the only one who will ever satisfy my love, my needs, and my attentions. I give praise to you on this day, Lord God, because you have brought me out of the depths of innumerable depressions and darknesses. Thank you Jesus!

If you don't like the way I am, the way I look, then you can get over it because this is how God made me, and that means that you're defying God. I don't want to change for you anyway. I want to change because God wants me to change. I want to change for God and no one else.

I'm tired of being insecure in my mind. People don't see and hear what goes on in my mind about myself, and I try to keep it that way. I don't want people seeing this weakness and not confide in me. well, I don't want to say that either. I do have weaknesses, and I hope that God will use these weaknesses as strengths for his glory and causes. God I ask that you use me for your will, help me to be strong when I am weak. Give me strength to do as you want me to do. I love you Lord God. In Jesus name, Amen.

God Bless